Has it been over a year since I made an entry? Work blocks all of the good spam now. There was a rash of Viagra and Xanax offers but they block those too. Just as well. I wish I had more to add but no one really comes here...so find me in one of my many communities. =)
I guess the lesson here is that if your country is not communist, you will not be good at gymnastics. We need more children being taken away at age 3 and forced to live in dingy training camps, eating ground up gym mats for dinner. Remember those tragic stories you would always see on the Olympics? "Sasha Rominsaloslav tried to contact her family one Christmas day to thank them for the piece of bread she received, only to learn that they had all died in a tragic mule accident. Determined to make her country proud, she did not cry and instead worked on the balance beam for 36 hours straight." I miss those. Everything was always grey.
...is over. Meaning no more diet cheating! I had a cookie this AM and now I feel like I am going to vomit. =P It's funny how sickening sugary stuff can be when you haven't had sugar in weeks. I have 11 lbs to go to meet my initial goal. Then 20 more. Ugh! I played Wii tennis for the 1st time yesterday and I am seriously addicted. If I could only find a spare $350 somewhere. I got so into it that I wacked my friend's 2 year old daughter in the forehead with my wiimote. Oops! She's ok. In keeping with some TMI spirit, I'm switching from LoEstrin back to Yasmin tomorrow. My periods have been so freaking irregular and my skin has been bad. I'm either about to get my period today or I'm pregnant. I'll take a test to make sure but I think the nausea is from the cookie and the sore boobs are from PMS. Oh, I also sliced my thumb yesterday while chopping lettuce. Don't talk and chop - not safe. I got one of the ER docs to patch me up this morning so I am officially on the mend. That's it for today's poorly written entry. Have a wonderful weekend. Fireworks tonight - yay!
Even though Joshua is only 5 months old, my husband and I are making a concerted effort to stop swearing in front of him. All I need is for his first word to be "fuck!" So we've instituted a virtual swear jar. Neither of us ever have cash, so we just say "Swear jar!" and that's usually enough to catch it. Anyway, I was letting my iTunes play through yesterday while playing on the floor with the little guy. I think Kayne West owes us ten bucks.
Being called "sweetheart" has to be one of the most demeaning things ever. Which reminds me of one of the many reasons why I don't watch those birth shows on TLC - they're always saying things like "good girl!" to the moms in labor. I'd punch someone out. Seriously. How freaking patronizing.
In other news, I have a very close relationship with balsamic vinegar. I could drink that shit straight.
Question: is it creepy to take a nap with your toddler? No reason. Just asking.
In light of everything that's happened recently, I've decided to switch from online journaling to regular pen and paper. There's something to be said for the sentimental value of the written word and I think Josh would appreciate reading his mother's handwriting instead of her blog. Call me old fashioned. =) I will just say one thing since it hit me a few moments ago: Viewing belly pics on the pregnancy communities, especially my due date community, is harder than I would have thought. I really grieve the fact that I never got to be big and pregnant. I look at Josh and wish that he was still inside of me kicking around instead of being in the NICU. Although there is a benefit - my husband and I really feel like we're getting to know him and his personality. We were finishing our registry today and we determined that some things we liked before just "aren't his style." Not many parents get the chance to really meet their bundles before bringing them home. I can't wait for that day either. But he's working on it, getting stronger by the day. You go, little guy!
I feel sooo crappy today. I had the hardest time dragging myself out of bed this morning. I actually came in a few hours late because I feel too guilty taking sick days, but I really should have stayed home. My throat is kind of sore, I woke up to a big zit on my chin and then my hair was doing this weird part-thing is the back. I feel kind of spacey and generally annoyed at everything. Gah! I attribute it to lack of downtime. I have not had a day off where I haven't had an appointment, a visit, plans, whatever in God knows how long. I have off this weekend, but it's not going to be much better. Plans Fri evening after work with friends who got a rare babysitting opportunity for their two girls, mom visiting Saturday afternoon, plans Sat evening with friends coming from out of state. Sunday is clear, but then it's back to working Monday-Thursday, off Friday and then working the weekend again. Don't get me wrong - I want to see these people, but there doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. I just need a few days off with no interruptions - is that too much to ask? But, then again, I'm closely guarding my vacation/sick time because of my upcoming maternity leave. I *will* take some time off in the beginning of December no matter what. Ok, enough ranting. Back to work. =P